My life, a diary in the making.

Alright so the last post was talking about losing the fire. Even though I look at my life and think that I should have been doing something the whole time, something is less productive for God then doing the right thing. So I sat and watched what was going on in my life for the last several years and grew on a personal note. I took deep inventories of who I was, and the things that needed to be changed I made the changes. To many times we hear a word from God or we get convicted of something that God needs to change and we go back to what we were doing prior to the encounter and never deal with the issue. This does not make for a good vessel that God can use, actually it causes us to be shallow in our faith, let me explain.

I had a friend that use to come in to work and tell me how God had spoke to her on Sunday for instance. How God revealed to her that gossip was a bad thing and the gossip and drama that she lived in everyday was not glorifying to God. She would talk about the altar call and the scriptures that she read but she never changed. The next day she would be out there causing drama and stirring up gossip all over again. So even though God convicted her of these issues, she never sat and dealt with them as His child, she just kept on going about life as usual. This caused her to get discouraged every time the world as she knew it crashed on her, due to the gossiping. It was a nasty cycle that when I left my job, she still had not solved.

I really wish I had some good news for you that would make you feel encouraged but the fact is that when God convicts us of something, we need to just deal with it or it will keep surfacing over and over again.